I don’t let a down day get me down.
Yesterday was the worst day that I have had in long time. My pain was extreme and I had some other very difficult symptoms. My day was what is usually called a flare-up. That’s “fibromyalgia speak” for the experience of feeling shitty in the most possible ways. I liken it to a really bad flu mixed with a reaction to ingesting a poisonous toxin.
I live with chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia. I do not tend to focus on it because I have found that paying too much attention to it makes me feel worse. I don’t want to irritate people by talking about it either. For this article, I mention it because I want to make it clear what I mean by a down day.
Such a day can trigger depression. It surely did. But, I reminded myself not to let it get me down. I reminded myself that such a day does not define the next day. I won’t say that today is a vastly improved day over yesterday. It is a better day.
By reminding myself that a down day doesn’t have to get me down I was able to handle it. According to Susan Jeffers, Ph.D., who wrote “Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway”, the belief that we can’t handle something is at the bottom of most all of our fears. I was able to handle it and I’ve been able to handle it many times before. I don’t fear it. I am tired of it. Chronic pain is tiring. I can’t say that I believe that it has it’s place (that there is a reason for it). It’s just good to know that I can handle it. And, I will handle it.
Despite the pain which in life is inevitable the heart of life is good. John Mayer sings that the heat of life is good in his song “The Heart of Life”. I agree. There is so much to do and experience. I don’t want to miss those things. There are so many connections with good people to be made. I don’t want to miss that either.
I keep moving forward so that the experience of life in whatever form it takes is a new opportunity for me to live.